I heard the news while I was having breakfast. I went blank, shocked. My sister was talking, but I couldn’t get her words into my mind.
You seemed happy lately, with new album released and the tour. I remembered watching a video uploaded by your wife. You were smiling beautifully at her. I was smiling too because I could see how you loved her so much. Now I wonder; when you were smiling like that, were you actually hiding your pain inside?
I felt like something missing inside of me. It felt like losing someone who used to be around, and would still be around for some more times. You won’t. You won’t be around anymore.
I feel I have to apologize to you. I’m sorry it turned to be like this. You have voiced so many feelings inside of me that I never could let it out. You screamed things that I couldn’t screamed. You spoke what’s on my mind. You felt what I felt. I’m sorry, I’m sorry you couldn’t be saved with the same way you have saved me.
I truly pray you will be in peace now. No more suffering and pain. You will only feel love and be loved by everyone.
I will always remember you, in my mind, in my heart.
Rest in peace, Chester. Sleep well.