Monday, December 31, 2012

Happy new year!

It's been a great year.
With ups and down. Happiness and tears.
Finding new things. Learning new things. Meeting new people. Exploring new sounds.

Thank you for keep being with me (bowing).

Will be hoping for another exciting and great year with everyone.

Happy new year~~~
May Allah bless us all!

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

My voices: slideshow video


Made this one a long time ago and... *burst into laugh*

The music is from Final Fantasy VII Advent Children: Cloud's Smile.
Really...seriously... *burst into laugh*

Monday, December 24, 2012

For Deadly Violinist.


Hurray!! I manage to do it!

I've done a translation in Bahasa about SUGIZO's interview with MJPlus.

I'm so happy~~~
I'm honored to done the translation.
A bit worried too since some content was quite difficult to translate >_<

The interview discuss about SUGIZO's music, inspirations, and his many many works.
He's indeed an awesome artist! So talented, so inspiring!

I feel deeply touched when I read the English version.
And it's a hard task to make the same feeling for Bahasa's version.
I hope I've done it pretty good.

How about it people?
Have I done it well? :D

Friday, December 21, 2012

"Lion Heart"

The prove of Maonyan's tenderness (>w<)

He's a gentle soul!

Love it when he do the shake hands.
He will look straight to the eyes, smile, and hold tight the hands.

And this one... >w< 
Maonyan!! You are really kind!! >w< 

title - vistlip's song. 
pictures - SID d'Lovers & Mao's blog. 

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

JpopAsia Music Awards 2012 - my vote

JpopAsia has make their 2012 music awards. Time to vote is until December 24th, 2012.
But, I can only vote once for one day and for one category.
I can't vote for all category at once?
I've vote for Favorite artist/band and New artist/band 2012.
Hope I still have enough time to vote for the rest.
Doubt it though.

Anyway... If I manage to vote all, this is my vote and the reason.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Order (has been) Made

Friend: "You seem having lots of money" 
Me: "That's not true. I've been waiting for it. I have save money"'s the end year shopping for me.

Satsuki's 1st full album, Luminous.
vistlip's mini album. Gloster.

Next year will be a completely a different year for me. It will really be a new year.
My life will change.
I can't shop crazily anymore.
I have to choose.

Well, I already have.
It will be L'Arc~en~Ciel, vistlip, and manga.

Deep sorry for my other voices.
But, I have to make choices.
And I also have made a promise, to support the Five Barkin' Animals in anyway that I can.

Heaven's Door.

Be very careful with what your wishing.
Because Heaven would hear you and make the wish become true in a very odd way.

I once wish that I could have more times to rest.
I was feeling damn tired.
With the life, the works, the people.
Look what I get?

Mom passed away.

It's not the first time happening.

Once I asked for some signs to help me decide either I would go watch Luna Sea's concert in Singapore or not.
In the sudden, Mom got sick.
There's no way I could have fun in a concert when Mom was sick.
Bros and Sister would scold me. Mom would also cursed me.
It's not a decent thing to do :D

So just be careful with what you are wishing for. You won't ever know what you would get.
It's fine if you get a fortune. But if not?
Just be careful, okay? :D

Sunday, December 09, 2012

7 Days

Today is the 7th days of the passing away of my mom.

Mom died on December 2nd, 2012.
I've found her lying on the bed, not breathing.
We've put on oxygen mask to save her life.
It's useless.

Until now, I can still remember the feel of her skin when I tried to wake her up.

"Don't be joking!" I've said.

I can still remember her image who's sitting on the bed.

"We're killing her softly" said 3rd brother when we took Mom home from the hospital.

Mom spend 10 days in the hospital without showing positive progress. She spend 2 weeks at home before she passed away. 1st brother said she probably had an heart attack.


That's the word I've been thinking.

If only I didn't took her home.
If only I checked on her earlier.
She might still be living now.

"How can we don't know she's not breathing?" asked Sister when she tried to pumped Mom's heart.

I stunned.

I felt that I was the one who killed her.
I was the one who let her died.
I'm hoping that when Mom said, "it hurts", she doesn't mean when the grim reaper took her life.
I hope she meant her sickness. I hope the pain from her body covered the pain when she's battling for life.  

I can really remember it clear, the look of her face and the feel of her slightly breathe on my fingers.

Mom, I'm sorry.
I know our relationship was fill with love and hate.
I'm not and won't ever be your favorite children.
You also aren't the greatest mother in the world.
But, you were my mom. That's it.

Rest in peace.
Told Dad that I said hello.
And Dad, please show Mom the way around, okay?
Be good you two.
Mata ne.

Friday, December 07, 2012


I know that I'm so bless.
Allah has bless me with kind people around me. People who would help me, taking care of me, and protect me.
They are my precious little family.
For them, I want to do my best, to be my best. I hope I can really do it. I will try to do it. Ganbarimasu!
Thank you, mina-san. We're on the same boat. We're on this together. For the good and bad, we will stick together. Let's fight together!