Today I was feeling disappointed with myself. Actually to be honest, I have experience the feeling for quite sometimes. And usually I can deal with it. But, not today. You know why? It's because of you.
You may not realize the meaning of your existence to me.
I've been looking up to you.
You are the strength for me. You are the one that bring me the spirit. You are the one that keep remind me to work hard. And I've fail to do so.
Now you understand why I can't easily ease the disappointed feeling? Because I was feeling ashamed. I feel ashamed with myself that can't be like you. I've look up to you, making you the source of my strength, the source of my spirit, but I didn't make it.