Friday, April 30, 2010

Morning Surprise

It happen yesterday morning on my way to the train station. I stop a public car, when I want to take a sit, someone put his jacket and blocking my way. I don’t think of anything after he take away the jacket. I just keep bending my head down. Then the person make a sound as if he’s calling me. I turn to see and my smile widening. I know the person!

He’s my childhood crush!

It’s a coincidence to see him, to take the same public car. He’s heading the same place with me, so we walked together [girl mode on: kyaaaaaa!] He’s still the same person I’ve like. He still has the same bass voice, the same smile, the same laugh, he’s getting taller though and I don’t remember him being so talkative. He talks more than I do :) But, I’m happy since I can know more about his life :)

Sadly he take different train with me. I still want to talk with him. I was still in girl mode that time, so I keep watch his back fading away XP He might notice me, but it doesn’t matter. I may not see him on the road like that again. I don’t want to waste the opportunity :)

But I hope I will seeing him on a friend’s wedding party this Saturday :)

Such a great morning surprise. I like it!

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:)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Bi or Not to Bi

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Bi on the post is stand for Bisexual. And this post was made after a chat with a friend.

KiRai     : “I’ve read somewhere that X is a Bi, while Y is a gay”

Friend   : “Eh? Are you serious?? Is it really true??”

KiRai     : “Yes, that’s true I guess,”

Friend   : “Oh no…why?”

KiRai     : “Is there a problem? I don’t mind at all”

Friend   : “No, I don’t mind either. It’s just I’d only like to see them doing fan service but not expect them to be like that in real life,”

KiRai     : “Oh…”

Her answer surprised me. She likes to see them caring for each other like a lover, doing a fan service, but don’t want them to have it in real life??? I’ really surprised and don’t understand. Well, maybe she was quite shocked with the news so she can’t think what to say :)

For me, it’s really doesn’t matter. Whether the artist is bisexual or gay, it’s not what important for me. I will still like them. My first feel for them is with the music, so as long as their private life doesn’t interfere their quality of music, it’s fine with me.

I even feel amazed when I know that KIRITO (Angelo’s vocalist) has claims that he’s a gay. He’s so brave to make such confession, even though I don’t know whether it’s true or not, I still honor him :)

So to be Bi or not..it’s their choice. It’s their life. As long as their happy, I won’t ever mind. I will also be happy for them :)

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Angelo: Hikari no Kioku

hikari no kioku cover

Track list:

  1. Hikari no Kioku
  2. Last Song
  3. Rainbow
  4. Hikari no Kioku (Inst.)

“Eh??” That’s my first impression for this latest single album from Angelo, “Hikari no Kioku”. I really completely forget about this band :D So, I was surprised to see new work from them. Gomen ne, Angelo-san :)

My second, “Eh??” come for the songs in this album. The first track, “Hikari no Kioku” is a quite a slow song, so differ with Angelo’s songs I’ve listen. I was surprised Angelo have this kind of song. This song is also the soundtrack for Anime, “Tegami-Bachi”. I can’t say more about the songs in this album. It’s just great! I’ve been listening and put the songs everywhere, computer, iPod, cell phone, and humming it sometimes. Also thanks for this album, now I’ve been wandering inside Angelo’s realm aka Kirito realm (Pierrot & solo works). Just like I’ve said over and over, I always like people with uniquely voice in music. And Kirito-san is one of the voices I like. He really has a unique voice!



p.s. the video can be watch below this blog XP

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Aishiteiru Kara ~lyric~

Aishiteiru Kara [Because I love you]

by Kamenashi Kazuya

 

Tatoeba moshi kono yoru

Boku ga kimi wo ushinatta toshitemo

Wasurenai yo boku wa kimi wo aishiteiru kara
.

Mijikai kiss wo sotto kawasuto tsuki akari no naka ni

Yawarakaku kanjiru tabi koboreru aijou

Warai goe toka kanashii kao mo takusan mite kita kedo

Hajimete miru sono sugata wa boku wo tomadowaseta

Kagi kakete sotto kokoro no naka ni...

Arigatou sae mo kimi no kokoro ni todokete nakute
.

Hatenaku tsudzuku michi no naka ni kimi wa nani wo omou no

Wasurenaide sono kokoro no soba ni sotto isasete

.
Kurushii kimochi yami ni kakushite fuzakete ita ano koro

Taikutsu na otona ni naru yotei datta kedo

Kagi kaketeta kokoro sotto akete

Arigatou to iu kotoba kimi ni ima todoku kana
.

Hatenaku tsudzuku michi no naka ni kimi wa nani wo omou no

Wasurenaide sono kokoro no soba ni sotto isasete

.
Kimi to no hibi sotto omoikaeshite wa

Hitori ja nai koto kimi ga boku ni oshiete kureta
Kimi ga kurushii toki wa dare yori mikata ni naru to kimeta

Wasurenaide boku wa kimi wo aishite...
.

Tatoeba moshi kono yoru

Boku ga kimi wo ushinatta toshitemo

Wasurenai yo boku wa kimi wo aishiteiru kara

Wasurenai de boku wa kimi wo aishiteiru kara

Translation:

Even if I lost you tonight,

I won't ever forget, because I love you
.

Every time we softly exchanged a short kiss under the moonlight,

affection would overflow with the gentle feeling

Both your laughter and your sad face,

I had come to see them many times,

but that look which I saw for the first time still amazed me

You hold the key to unlock my heart, softly...

My gratitude won't even reach your heart

.
In the middle of this road that goes on endlessly,

I wonder what you are thinking

Don't ever forget, let me softly stay by your heart

.
There was a time when I would mess around,

hiding my pains in the darkness,

fully planning on become just another boring adult,

but you held the key to softly open up my heart

I wonder if my word of "thanks" will reach you in this moment

.
In the middle of this road that goes on endlessly,

I wonder what you are thinking

Don't ever forget, let me softly stay by your heart
.

Looking back on the days we were together,

you were the one who taught me that I was not alone

.
I have decided that I would be the one to stand by your side

in times of sadness

Don't ever forget, that I love you...
Even if I lost you tonight,I won't ever forget,

because I love you

Don't ever forget, because I love you

P.S. For someone whose existence won’t ever disappeared from me. What ever happen, don’t ever forget, I will always love you…

Monday, April 19, 2010

Kimi’s Turkish adventure: 5th place!!

When I almost scream out for not finding news about Kimi’s result at God damn local newspaper…My frustrations gone along with his shining smile :) I’m so happy seeing him smile, and further more for his result on Turkish Rally.

Kimi finished in 5th place!!! He has improve his positions from the last one at Jordanian rally. Isn’t that fabulous?! Isn’t that awesome?! Isn’t that incredible and amazingly awesome?!! It’s awesome! It’s amazing! It’s his first season at rally, and he can finished in 5th!! Hat’s up for this great man!!

From his words, I can tell he has gain much confident with the rally’s world. I’m so happy and grateful that he’s doing fine there. I’m happy that Kimi’s hard works have finally giving result. I’m glad he’s happy where he is right now. I’m happy everything has turns out to be good for him. I’m glad for you, Kimi. I really am :)

But still, this is just the beginning. The beginning for his new chapter. I’m glad he can start it quite good. I always believe Kimi can make it through. He is a hard worker and never easily giving up. He’s just simply the best!!

As always, thank you for your hard work, Kimi. You always make me proud and amaze. You always make me happy. I will always support you no matter what! I will always love you forever!!

Go Kimi Go! We’re on this together!!

look here

Kimi: “Yes, we are.”

:)

Thursday, April 15, 2010

KiRaidesu Productions

These are the list of my writings :)

[DONE]

  1. Anata ga Iru Kara
  2. Feeling Fine (anata ga iru kara spin off)
  3. Sayounara (anata ga iru kara spin off)
  4. Fist & Stick (anata ga iru kara spin off)
  5. The Guardian and I (one shot)
  6. The Side A of a Dream (one shot)
  7. The Side B of a Dream (one shot)
  8. He’s My Brother ~Sam & Dean Winchester~ (fan fiction)
  9. L’Arc~en~Ciel Worst Nightmare (fan fiction)
  10. The Guardian & I ~other story~ (one shot)

[in progress]

  1. Last Quarter ~the other story~
  2. Undecided
  3. Takumi to Sora
  4. Love Before Time (fan fiction)

[in concept]

  1. Kazoku desu dakara
  2. Child’s play
  3. Undecided 2

I’ve post “The Side A of a Dream” and “The Side B of a Dream” here at my blog. It’s in the old posts. If anyone interested to read, please go to: http://kiraidesu.livejournal.com. I create an account there to post my writings. Well, that’s my first intention XP

Enjoy!

Strange Tales of Yesterday Evening

It all started with Dipa’s panic. She has lost a file she has finished working. She’s so scared, confused, and panic. So do I. Then she hurried went back home and skipping her class to look for the file at her computer house.

Then just like usual Wednesday, I went to UI to bought new mangas. Usually Dipa will drive me there, so I would get the manga and still can catch the train on time. But Dipa won’t drive me there over the trouble she’s having. Even so I was really excited since I will have so many manga to read! I don’t care I’ll be coming home very late cause of it!

But…

When I arrive, the place was close!!! What the fuck! I was shouting inside and put confused look at the face. I look around but I don’t see the kiosk owner. Sigh…I was so disappointed!! There I was, with no manga to get and also already late for the train. I was so depressed!

But then…there’s announcement saying that my train will enter the station soon! Yokattara!! Though I don’t get the manga but I surely won’t miss the train!! I hurried and succeed get inside the train! Feuh!!

Then…there’s SMS come in. It’s from the kiosk owner saying that he was around the kiosk and had the mangas I wanted. What the hell??? I don’t know what to react. Should I cry or laugh? I only grin reading the message. Maybe other passengers caught my weird reaction XP Oh well…I was already on the train heading home. I told the owner to keep the mangas and I would get it tomorrow.

I can’t believe what had happen. There I was, at the train heading home. I may not have the mangas but at least I won’t be coming home very late. And then Dipa inform me that she still has the file at home. It’s surely a great relief for both of us.

And so…I’m still wondering now. Should I say I was lucky or having bad luck?? Don’t know :D

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Love Letter?

Dear Mao-kun,

What if I told you that I’ve been mostly listening to your voice?

What if I told you that you have light up my days?

What if I told you that you make me laugh and happy?

What if I told you that your words make me calm?

What if I told you that I’m cherishing you so much?

Thank you so much, Mao-kun :)

You are so BLESS!!

maonyan n kid

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Perfect Girl Evolution ~dorama~

Yamatonadeshiko

New dorama from Kame-chan!!

It’s the live action version from the manga, “Perfect Girl Evolution”.

The story is about 4 good looking guy who lived together in a house. In order to get free-rent of the house, the guys have to change the owner niece to become a perfect lady. The matter is that the niece is a dark, scary, and gloomy girl who loves horror’s movies, darkness, and scary things. So, the fight for free-rent will now begin!

There’s 2 reason why I want to watched this dorama, 1. because it’s Kame-chan; 2. because I want to see how the manga interpreted as a live action.

At first, I was quite hesitant after doing quick view over this dorama. I think Kame-chan isn’t as cool as the character of Kyohei Takano on the manga. The same thing goes to the rest of the cast. But then after I finally have time to fully watched it, I’m quite amaze. This dorama has create another realm of “Perfect Girl Evolution”. The stories are mixed stories from the origin manga story. Even so, it’s still quite interesting to follow. I would never think to see “Kyohei” cried, but in this dorama he cried for his mother! Strange but also touching XD I also think this dorama is mostly about “Kyohei’s life” aka Kame-chan has bigger portion to show up, and that’s really a strong reason for me to watch this XP

My most favorite part from this dorama was when Kyohei mock Sunako-chan to awaken her special ability, fighting. Kyohei would called her, “Busunako! Busunako! Busunako! Busonako!” which I think it means “ugly Sunako”. It’s so funny that sometimes I act it to my nephew and niece XP

This dorama also has a surprising ending! Kyohei and Sunako become a couple! Another thing I don’t expect was to hear Kyohei confessions for Sunako-chan. Kyohei hug Sunako-chan from the back and confess his feeling for her. That he doesn’t mind her to be dark, gloomy, ugly, just to be herself, Kyohei will still like her. Well, actually Kyohei is the only one who doesn’t so insisted to change Sunako-chan to a lady. He’s quite comfortable with the way she was, and for the most for her cooking. I think no one would understand Sunako-chan better than Kyohei.

And for that, I am touch! I wonder will there be someone like Kyohei for me? Someone who accept me the way I am. Someone that look at me not only in the surface. Will Kimi be that someone? I wish for it! :)

Friday, April 09, 2010

Beautiful gift from a beautiful one

These beautiful Sakura pictures were taken by my sweet and cute friend Satomi-chan. She has help me viewing the beautiful Sakura in Japan. I wish I was living in Japan, my second home land XP I want to see the Sakuras blooming so beautifully. I want to go on hanami! I want to go on night hanami with Satomi-chan!!

Thank you so much for posting the pictures, dearest Satomi-chan! You’ve make me so happy~~~ I’m happy I have a very kind friend like you. I’ll always cherish you forever!!

And here goes the beauty of Satomi-chan home land.

1. [White Sakura aka Yamazakura]

white sakura

2. [Pink Sakura aka Someiyoshino]

pink sakura

3. [Sakura at Night aka Yozakura]

yozakura sakura at night

4. Sakura at night [2]

night sakura

5. Sakura Carpet (1)

sakura carpet

6. Sakura Carpet (2)

sakura carpet2

So beautiful~~~ Wish someday I could see this beauty by myself~~~

Hontouni doumo arigatou gozaimashita dear Satomi-chan~~~ Daisukiyo!! :)

My [always be] future car

I’ve remember about this car when I re-read my old posts. I even still remember the night when I saw this beauty at the street of Bogor. I was cursing that time. How could someone drove my car? It should’ve wait for me to get it. If it’s in different color, I won’t care. But, the car I’ve saw that night was the same precisely car I’ve been adoring. The green new VW Beetle.

I’ve saw it years ago on the newspaper and fall in love with it since then. Even until now and also forever, this car will always be my favorite.

I like it’s shape, so cute~~ and the soft green color just make it cuter XDD

green bettle [front look]

[behind look] green beetle back

Thursday, April 08, 2010

Can’t Stop Loving You ~lyric~

"Can't Stop Loving You" by Phil Collins

So you're leaving In the morning
On the early train
Well I could say everything's alright
And I could pretend and say good bye

Got your ticket
Got your suitcase
Got your leaving smile
I could say that's the way it goes
And I could pretend and you won't know
That I was lying

Cause I can't stop loving you
No I can't stop loving you
No I won't stop loving you
Why should I

We took a taxi to the station
Not a word was said
I saw you walk across the road
For maybe the last time, I don't know

Feeling humble
Heard the rumble
On the railway track
And when I hear the whistle blow
I walk away and you won't know
That I'll be crying

Cause I can't stop loving you
No, I can't stop loving you
No I won't stop loving you
Why should I

(even try)

I'll always be here by your side (why why why)
I never wanted to say goodbye (why even try)
I'm always here if your change, change your mind

So you're leaving
In the morning
On the early train
Well I could say everything's alright
And I could pretend and say good bye
The guy would be lying

Because I can't stop loving you
No I can't stop loving you
No I won't stop loving you
Why should I
Even try
Because I can't stop loving you
No I can't stop loving you
No I won't stop loving you
Why should I
Why should I
Why should I
Tell me why
Why should I
Even try

p.s. The situation has really happen to me a very long time ago. Even until now, I still thinking and wondering about him.

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Disguise ~lyric~

“Disguise” by  Lene Marlin

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak

Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand

Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for the day
When your pain will disappear
When you know that it's not true
What they say about you
You could not care less about the things
Surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from the walls

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come

p.s. I’ve just come to remember this song. The lyric is the soundtrack of my main story character in “anata ga iru kara”. It really suits his role :)

But, now I’m starting to feel the same thing like in the lyric. The difference is that,

“I’m not okay, I really not now. Just needed some time, to figure things out. By telling lies, I won’t be honest with you. Still I don’t know what’s yet to come”

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

Happy & Proud (2)

mi world

Finally…Kimi has score his very first points at Jordanian Rally!! Yey!! Yatta!! His hard work starting to give good result. I’m so happy and proud of him!

So sad I couldn’t watched the race, I know the result from the sport news at TV. I was surprised that time! I can’t believe my ears. The papers doesn’t say anything about it when I check. So at first I was hesitant. But after I check the site…feuh…and then kyaaaaa!!!!! It’s true! Kimi has score points!! 4 points!! Awesome!! Finally he has done it!! Hell yeah!!

I can’t stop smiling after I heard the news, though I wasn’t sure but I choose to keep celebrate it XP Finally Kimi has make his first step. This is just the beginning and I believe the next one will be also giving good result for him :) Hard works never fail!! Go Kimi go!!! I know you can do it. I always know it! You’re the greatest one!!!

my knight

Cherry Cherry ~lyric~

Cherry Cherry
by Acid Black Cherry


Cherry! Give me smile!
Lost inside you are my dream & love. Round and round.

Kanojo no namae wa [[tsuuchou]] "[CHERII]" [AGEHA]chou kabure no [[moto]] fujoshi
[ANIME] kara eta chie de machou ni migaki wo kakeru

"nantoka [HARUHI]?" mitai na [RUKKUSU] [SUTAIRU] wa hansoku nan janai?
Kono wagamama hime wa "koakuma" teido jya sumanai

Nee kiiteokure [CHERII] "konaida [BAITO] no toki ni..."
Kanojo wa unazukinagara keitai wo [IJIRI]dasu

Mita koto nai [VITON] no [BAGGU] "Mite hora! Kawaikunakunai?" nante
Yoku wakaranai kedo....boku ga ageta no wa doushita no?

"Ii kagen ni shite yo!" tama ni [MUTT]to shita kao shitara
Fureru dake no kiss wo shite okimari no "okkocha[YAADA]

"[DORAIBU]shitai no [DAARIN] Hayaku mukae ni kite kite
"Isoide iku ne!" tte itte karui [FASSHON SHOO] no kaisai

Tama ni sasotte kuretara okurasete "sayonara" nante
Mada furimawasare itsumo munashiku naru no ni


Doushite kirai ni narenai!? Aite ni mo saretenai no ni
"Aitai no kotoba ni yowai amakute suppai [CHERII]
"Ii kagen ni shite yo!" itsumo boku dake ga karamawari
Fureru dake no kiss wo shite sore de mou komakasanai de

"![NMAGESO NO KO! ROTEMIKATSUI!]
[YODAN NARI WA TOKO OGACHITSUKOKANNAEMAO]
![YONANMENA! TETSUGAYARI NANIKII IYARITEMMADA]
Nante ienai...

Itsuka ichido dake naite mayonaka ni denwa shite kite ne
Riyuu nado doushite mo yokute sore ga nanda ka ureshikatta
Kanojo to dou naritai to ka ima wa sonna no kankei nai kedo
Tokidoki no gohoubi sore dake jya wari ni awanai!

Doushite kirai ni narenai!? Aite ni mo saretenai no ni
"Aitai no kotoba ni yowai amakute suppai [CHERII]
"Ii kagen ni shite yo!" Tama ni [MUTT]to shitari suru kara
Fureru dake no kiss wo shite sore dake de tsuyoku naru yo
Kimi no soba ni iru kara dakara mou ichido kiss shite


Translations:

Cherry! Give me smile!
Lost inside you are my dream & love. Round and round.

Her name [alias] is "Cherry", a born lover of boy's love comics, adorned in butterflies
With the wisdom readily absorbed from anime, she brushes up on being devilish

Like "Something Haruhi"? Aren't your looks and style just you playing a little dirty?
It's not enough to call this selfish little princess a "devil"

Hey, listen for a minute, Cherry... "The other day when I was at my part time job..."
While she nods at me, she plays with her cell phone

A Vuitton bag I've never seen before, "Hey, look, isn't it so cute?!" you say
Not that I know anything about it, but...what happened to the one I gave you?

"Be reasonable, would you?!" When I give you that sullen look from time to time
You give me just a brush of a kiss, and the usual "I don't like when you're mad

"Wanna go for a drive with me, Darling? Come here quick and get me, get me
"I'll be right there!" I say, and your little fashion show goes live

Sometimes when you invite me out, when I bring you home again you just say "goodbye"
Abusing me all over again, even though I always do everything in vain

Why can't I seem to hate you? Even though you won't let me be your boyfriend either
Going weak when you say "I want to see you The sweet-and-sour Cherry
"Be reasonable, would you?!" I'm always the only one going round and round to nowhere
Just give me that little brush of a kiss, and in that don't deceive me

"Take a look at this sometime! This expensive price tag!
What the hell do you think you're doing, rejecting something like this!
If you just shut up, I'll give you something you really like! Don't screw with me like this!"
But I can't say anything like that...

Someday, just once, call me in the middle of the night crying
It doesn't matter what your reason is even just that made me happy somehow
What kind of girl do you want to be with, you'd ask, though right now that doesn't matter
Getting a reward sometimes, if that's all you've got, then it's not worth it!

Why can't I seem to hate you? Even though you won't let me be your boyfriend either
Going weak when you say "I want to see you The sweet-and-sour Cherry
"Be reasonable, would you?!" Since I'll be sullen from time to time
Just give me that little brush of a kiss, and that will make me strong
Since I'm here next to you, just for that, kiss me again

[from http://www.papersnow.net/kiku/]