Sunday, February 28, 2010

Perfect Girl Evolution (part 4)

It’s a little chat in the afternoon.

A: “I think you’ll look beautiful if you let your hair grew long, try it!”

A: “She looks beautiful if she let her hair grew long, right?”

B: “Maybe,”

B: “She’ll look more beautiful if she let her hair grew long, more feminism, wears make up, wears braces, slimmer,”

A: “Hey, who do you think you are?

Yeah, who do you think you are? I don’t need you to say all of that. Though I’m like this, but I like what I am.

I don’t like have a long hair, it’s hot! It’s not I don’t want to be feminism, it’s a habit! It’s not I don’t wear makeup, I like to wear the most natural one! It’s not I don’t want to wears braces, it’s too expensive! I’d rather use the money for some other useful things (read: manga and musical things), It’s not I don’t want to get slimmer, I’m trying here! It’s not I don’t want to do those things..I’d like to do it on my own way…if I do it whatever people asked me then what’s left from me?

Here I am, this is me! Then just accept it!!

sunako chan

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Perfect Girl Evolution (part2)

sunako

This story has happen quite a long time ago. I was running to the train that was ready to leave. I get inside the crowded train trying to find a little pace for me. A man said to me, “oh come on…go on...keep squeeze in,” I know the train was crowded but I just want to find a hold so I won’t fall. I believe if I fall, he doesn’t want to get the blame. Then, come a sweet and cute little princess. She gets inside the same train with me and also trying to squeeze in, and what that man would say now? I could guess it, “be careful, you might fall,” said the man. Okay…just because I was looking like a ruffian compare to the princess, I was treated differently. He doesn’t mind if I fall but not with that girl. I wish I can hit that man’s face and then get out from the train, but going home was way too important for me that time. So, I decided to hold on with the stupidity of the man and the rest of the passengers as the train started to move. I should have known it, boys will always be boys, and no matter the age is.

Perfect Girl Evolution (part3)

I laugh to my self when this happen. One day, a tiny and stylish woman was walking in front of me at the station platform. I just know it that every man would look as the girl passed by. But when I passed right just behind her, people are also looking at me from up to the bottom. Actually I’m quite surprised with the reaction, since when the girl pass by, they only put attention on her for a short time. But, not with me, they still look at me even after I walked quite far. I know what’s on their mind; they’re wondering what am I? Am I a man or a girl? XD Gosh, I always avoid to attract people attention, but with my appearances like this I get much more attention than I ever wanted XDD

sunakochibi1

Monday, February 22, 2010

Perfect Girl Evolution (part1)

sunako chan

A long time ago, a friend shared his story with me. He was upset with one of his team member that was a girl. He started his moaning about girls in common view. “Girls are like this….and like that…,” He kept moaning until I said, “Hey, you are talking to a girl here,” then he said, “Oh yeah, sorry,”, “I don’t mean you, you are different,” XD I really laugh hard that time. But in the end, I don’t defending the human called girls; because I’m quite agree with his descriptions about them. Yes, I’m a girl, but I don’t like to join their group. I’m a girl so I know quite well how can be so manipulative they are. Girls are second best manipulative group just below little kids. And for his case, it’s his own fault could easily fall to the manipulative play of the girl ^_^ Boys just become stupid when with pretty girls XD

So, who are girls as commonly people know? Well, I only describe this according to my own point of view. Girls are a group of human that describes to: have a pretty outlook; clean, neat, redolent, orderly; kind and gentle; have a fragile heart; uses heart more than head (XD); weak and must be protected; caring; intelligent; could easily attract people…is that all? I can hear them shouting….well for the truth; it’s my own description about girls that I less like. I think, girls (make it me) May not have that description...and I just hate it when people demand me to be like in the descriptions.

An old friend whom I met at the train refused his friend offer to jumping trains to get to the station exit, he said he feels pity asking me to do so, why? “She’s a girl,” What! I refused to jumping trains because it’s tiring! Not because I’m a girl! People have made the right way for us to walk, so why we should trouble ourselves by jumping trains! He said that after earlier inside the train he has praised me…He recognize one girl as his junior high friend…I said go and greet her...but he’s afraid if he’s mistaken her with someone else...I said then what about me? He said that earlier he was afraid of being mistaken recognize me but eventually he greet me anyway…I asked why and he said, “because you’re fierce and she’s sweet, if I’m mistaken her…I would feel awful,” Another strange reason that is XDD..If I’m fierce then you should have fear me more, because I would get upset and stared at you! XD

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

My (first ever) Valentine’s Gift!

Hehehe…I just got a gift from a friend that had gone to Singapore last week. It surprised me since I was only joking when I asked her to bring me gift from her trip. Believe me, I never expect anything! I even doesn’t remember she went there XP

And then, suddenly, today, she come to my desk and handed me a black box. First I thought it was a perfume XDD It turns out to be forks for eating fruits (I don’t know the right words to describe it XP) and also a pinky love Singapore key chain. I actually goes, “He? Pinky key chain???” I wonder where she got the thought to brought me that kind of thing XDD

Even so, I’m truly happy for the gifts!! It’s not the things that I see, but the care she give for me. I was surprised! I really am! Thank you so much! If it’s still in Valentine’s spirit, then the gifts is my very first ever Valentine’s gifts! Then I should thinking something for White Day. Wonder what will suit her?? I’m confused since this is the first time for me XP

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

“Everyday I love you”

I never celebrate valentine’s day. I won’t. But, why I’m feeling like to celebrate it for the first time in this year? I was feeling like to make chocolate and give it to my one and only special person.

But then again, I don’t need a day to give something for my special one. I don’t need a day to show my love. I can do it everyday.

Because everyday I love him :)

the love

my one and only special person…

Friday, February 12, 2010

Someday for Somebody

I’m waiting for that Someday

I know who will be that Somebody

I’m looking for that Somewhere

I want to give that Something

The thing I always have

Love

damn sweet

:)

p.s: a song, “Someday for Somebody” from Kamenashi Kazuya and words from KiRai

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Again and again…

It happens again!! XD Must I laugh or feel annoyed? But, somehow I feel quite proud since people think I’m as pretty as my profile picture XDD

As for everyone information…the profile picture I used is not me. Of course it’s not me! I’m not that pretty! Furthermore…I’m a girl and the picture is a man (though I’m half man inside) . It’s hyde sama! The one that has the most beautiful voice!

Recently someone contact me via “myspace” saying this sweet words that he wants to know me and that I’m beautiful so he gets attract to me. And the reason is that he sees my picture and profile. He said I have a beautiful picture and great profile. Okay, let’s get things straight out..the profiles are true mine but the picture isn’t. It’s hyde sama picture when role playing as Adam at Last Quarter XD

I never and will never put my real picture on any account. I like to use hyde and Kimi’s picture for my profile picture because I honor and love them so much that I want to see their face each time I open the account XP

I’ve used hyde’s picture more often than Kimi’s picture. Why? Because I do really like his beautiful and sweet look XDD especially when he’s acting as Adam. It’s his best act performance :) And it’s happen quite often when people miss seen his picture as the real me. I’ve explain who the person in the picture is..but come on..it’s hyde sama! He’s famous! Can’t people recognize him???

Here’s some hyde’s picture that make people it was me XP

hyde bobo

(Above is my profile picture from “tagged”. I remember someone call me, “beautiful”)

hyde

adam sings

adam thinks

(Those three are my profile pictures at “myspace”. The last one make a friend think I’m good with guitar XDD) and this is the newest one that make me called, “so sweet” XDD

hyde sings 

Gezz..hyde sama..you really have trouble me! XP But, I feel proud too that many people have the same think like me, that you are indeed really “BEAUTIFUL” in and outside :)

Friday, February 05, 2010

Words



"It's only words,"

I won't buy that again! I've been trouble by my own words for severe conditions, and mostly the conditions doesn't goes like I wanted.
For example, 2 weeks ago, I've make promise to my self that I won't lose with tiredness. I won't spend my weekend by sleeping all day long. I will get up and move just like in my daily days. I yelled, "I won't lose!!"

Then what happen?

For 2 weeks I haven't sleep properly! I've been busy with my works at office, my works at home, etc. It's like the Heaven is testing how far I would keep my words XP I've blew up some works but I still standing here though I was having a bad cold hehehe I don't know my self how far I could hold on but I feel I don't want to lose at this one. I've been losing for so many times against my own words, so I decide to make this one as my first start to be better :) I hope Heaven would hear it and help me by make everything easier XD

I still can't rest for this weekend, still have sort things to do, but just like I said over and over to my self, I won't lose!! Fight my self!! XDD

Thursday, February 04, 2010

(about) YOU

I wonder if it’s okay for me to live for you?
I wonder if it’s okay for me to fall in love with you?
I wanna be your lover



That transparent smile that I can seemingly reach if I stretch out my hand
it even twinkles, it’s so precious that
I can’t take my eyes off you baby

These feelings are unable to betray you
even if I get hurt, I don’t mind
I can only heatedly show you my heart

I wonder if it’s okay for me to live for you?
I want to share just one dream with you
I wonder if it’s okay for me to fall in love with you?
I want to wrap you up softly and protect you



There’s no need for decorated words
being strategic and such doesn’t suit me
there’s nothing that I’m hiding
I can’t take my eyes off you baby

There are no lies in these feelings
about the same as the blue of the sky
the beating of my heart from gazing at you now
I don’t want to run from it



I don’t need anything else but you
no matter what kind of sadness, we can get through it
I want to be holding the person important to me
the heartbeat that starts from the two of us

We don’t need to pretend or anything
because there’s a tomorrow
take out your courage
it can become freedom

Getting past solitude, I’ve finally come across
a miracle that’s being called out by angels
recognize my caring, allow my love
unfasten your heart and come to me

YOU -the lyric-

YOU
a song by KAT-TUN (XP)

anata no tame ni ikite ii ka na?
anata wo suki ni natte ii ka na?
I wanna be your lover

te wo nobaseba todokisou na sukitooru sono egao
mabataki sae oshii hodo I can’t take my eyes off you baby
kono kimochi wa uragirenai kizutsuite mo kamawanai sa
mune no uchi wo tsutaeru dake atsui uchi ni

anata no tame ni ikite ii ka na?
tatta hitotsu no yume wo wake aitai
anata wo suki ni natte ii ka na?
sotto tsutsumi konde mamoritai yeah

kazari kotoba wa iranai kakehiki nado niawanai
kakusu koto wa nani mo nai I can’t take my eyes off you baby

kono kimochi ni uso wa nai sa sora no ao to onaji gurai
ima mitsumeta tokimeki kara nigetakunai

anata no hoka ni nani mo iranai
donna kanashimi sae mo koeteyukeru
taisetsu na hito dakishimetetai
futari kara hajimaru kirameki wo yeah

kako nado iranai asu ga aru kara
yuuki wo dashina yo jiyuu ni nareru

kodoku wo koete yatto deaeta
tenshi ga sasou kiseki ni yeah
aibu mitomete ai wo yurushite
kokoro wo hodoite come to me, yeah

anata no hoka ni nani mo iranai
donna kanashimi sae mo koeteyukeru
taisetsu na hito dakishimetetai

futatsu ga hitotsu ni…


Translations:
I wonder if it’s okay for me to live for you?
I wonder if it’s okay for me to fall in love with you?
I wanna be your lover

That transparent smile that I can seemingly reach if I stretch out my hand
it even twinkles, it’s so precious that
I can’t take my eyes off you baby

These feelings are unable to betray you
even if I get hurt, I don’t mind
I can only heatedly show you my heart

I wonder if it’s okay for me to live for you?
I want to share just one dream with you
I wonder if it’s okay for me to fall in love with you?
I want to wrap you up softly and protect you

There’s no need for decorated words
being strategic and such doesn’t suit me
there’s nothing that I’m hiding
I can’t take my eyes off you baby

There are no lies in these feelings
about the same as the blue of the sky
the beating of my heart from gazing at you now
I don’t want to run from it

I don’t need anything else but you
no matter what kind of sadness, we can get through it
I want to be holding the person important to me
the heartbeat that starts from the two of us

We don’t need to pretend or anything
because there’s a tomorrow
take out your courage
it can become freedom

Getting past solitude, I’ve finally come across
a miracle that’s being called out by angels
recognize my caring, allow my love
unfasten your heart and come to me

Two becomes one…

Kimi said, "I'm fine"

One of my worries when Kimi decided to leave F1 and join WRC was, will he be fine? Though Kimi has been there for several times, it still completely a different world from F1. It's not that I was afraid Kimi won't make it, I know he can make it. I always believe in him :)

I was worried will he get accepted by the people there? That's my main worry. I was afraid he might get hurt again, just like when he's in F1. F1 hasn't treated him quite good, I've seen it my self how many times Kimi gets hurt. Though he never shows it, but I can feel it. He's not an iceman deep inside, so I believe somehow Kimi been thinking about the trouble with his own way.

But, I'm quite relief now :) Even before the rally officially started, the people there are welcoming him with so much warmth. They even believe Kimi would make it there though it would take times. Of course he would take times to succeed there, he's a talented driver but any talented driver must make some adaption in new environment. But Kimi has already pass that stage :D People there are very welcoming him and also the fans. It cheers me up!

Kimi's first rally driving was in Arctic Lapland Rally on January 27th, 2010. He couldn't get the best result but it's good for the championship warm up :D The start of it will be on February 14th in Sweden. I really hoping the very best for him there :) And I can see it at the party of WRC launch, Kimi looks so happy. He always smiling. His eyes are shining. I can see that he's thinking his future in WRC, a bright future that is :)

I'm so relief to see him smiling and shining like that. It means that he's fine and my worries now can disappear :)

Kimi said: "Don't worry, I'm fine here,"

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

SHINE

I want to shine on you
And always like that dazzling sun
I will defend you from all the darkness
This is the truth from my heart...
(SHINE by L'Arc~en~Ciel)

My shine of light