Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Sayounara my friends

On December, 14th, 2008, one of my friend, Muko Purwanto aka Muko aka Anto has passed away at the age of 24 years old. He suffered the same sickness that took my brother away.

Muko is an unique person, quite weird but still cool to be with. He's good in drawings and has the same interest towards Japanese Rock songs. His lifetime favorites was Malice Mazer and Shiam Shade. He also fond about Melody Maker.

I just hope that we had much more time together, maybe we could do crazy things. Crazy but fun. And like always I didn't got the chance to apologize to him for all the trouble I've caused. Muko is really an helpful person. He cares alot about his friends and loved to talk his favorites things over and over. I also haven't got the chance to return his drawings. Well, I'll never had the chance now. I'll keep his drawings as one of my treasure from now on along with the CD's he gave me.

Thanks for everything, man. I'm sorry we haven't been doing cool things together. We could if I hadn't canceled it each time I promised. May you rest in peace and may Allah SWT bless you.

Farewell my friend,

Sayounara watashi no tomodachi....

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

I'm back?

Well, I'm back.

I've been busy for the last few weeks but everything has been slowing down now. I'm trying to get my enthusiastic back. Somehow I become very lazy and could do nothing for the whole day. Not like I don't have things to do. I still got a lot of things to do, but then again I'm too lazy to get started khekhekhe....

I'm watching a Lee Jun Ki drama now. Totally consist of 16 episodes. But I can't watch it in one day. I could but everybody around me would moaning since I won't do anything and just looking at Jun Ki beautiful face ^^; It's my entertainment after Kimi's off season and Laruku sama hiatus.

I felt strange for the last two days. I spend most of the day upstairs at my room. I don't do anything much really. I've write few lines and then get a rest, well, I get rest a lot khekhekhe...People below keep calling me. They think I was sleeping, nop, I'm just listening to ipod. I don't want to hear their voices at the time. I don't know for how long this strange feeling going to last. I just feel quite comfortable being alone. Sometimes people just need a time for them self. I do.

Monday, November 10, 2008


I thought it was a dream

Everything seem to be usual

But when I saw the empty space and upon the faces

I knew wasn't a dream

It's real....

On the death of my brother in law, November 5th, 2008.

May he rest in peace. May Allah SWT forgive his mistakes and bless his every single kindness.

I know I haven't been a good sister. I know we haven't been a good sibling. I haven't treated you like the way a sister, even though you have been a good brother to me. We always act awkwardly each time we meet. Maybe I just get jealous since you take my one and only sister. I didn't think that you're the only brother in law I will ever had. I'm glad that I've change my attitude to you. But I still haven't got the chance to say how sorry I am for the past. I'm sorry. You're the best brother I had. You're the best for my sister. Don't worry, I'll always take care of your family. You can count me on that.

Rest in peace dearest abang....

Thursday, October 30, 2008


I'm tired.

Having a fight again. The same fight in the morning. Useless fight.

I've said harsh words. Useless words.

I've choose not to care. I've decide to be dead.

So, why I'm still feeling this pain?

Monday, October 27, 2008


Words from someone that we truly like really can affect us