Monday, July 24, 2017

To: Chester.


Source: here.

Dear Chester,

I heard the news while I was having breakfast. I went blank, shocked. My sister was talking, but I couldn’t get her words into my mind.

“Why?”

You seemed happy lately, with new album released and the tour. I remembered watching a video uploaded by your wife. You were smiling beautifully at her. I was smiling too because I could see how you loved her so much. Now I wonder; when you were smiling like that, were you actually hiding your pain inside?

“Why?”

I felt like something missing inside of me. It felt like losing someone who used to be around, and would still be around for some more times. You won’t. You won’t be around anymore.

“Why?”

I feel I have to apologize to you. I’m sorry it turned to be like this. You have voiced so many feelings inside of me that I never could let it out. You screamed things that I couldn’t screamed. You spoke what’s on my mind. You felt what I felt. I’m sorry, I’m sorry you couldn’t be saved with the same way you have saved me.

I truly pray you will be in peace now. No more suffering and pain. You will only feel love and be loved by everyone.

I will always remember you, in my mind, in my heart.

Rest in peace, Chester. Sleep well.             

Friday, July 14, 2017

Tired ....

It's Friday~
Time to get a slight release from work.

Earlier this week, I had the thinking to stop writing. I mean with any kind of writing: blog, social media, and stories. The so called "writers block" has give great impact to me. I don't have the feel to write on my journal, update my social media, also to continue stories I've been writing.

I simply went blank ....
No ideas coming, whether after I watched a movie or drama, or by listening to music.
Nothing.

Thursday, July 06, 2017

Hey, July!

July was supposed to be my favorite month.
Lots of birthdays and anniversary.
But, this year July brings one sadness.

A dearest co-worker has decided to resign from office.

I'm always bad with saying goodbye, or even to show my emotions. People might sees me as an emotionless person. To be honest, I'm way more expressive with words and emoticons.emoji. 😁

I was scared, I was afraid I would said:

"Why you have to resign? Can't you just stay?

But, I know I can't said those selfish words. It must be difficult for her to made the decision.
All I can do  now is to keep maintain our good friendship, even though we aren't in the same office anymore. We can even still meet each other, since we are living in the same small city of Bogor. 😂

Hey, dearest friend, good luck on your new journey out there.
Best of luck and wishes. I hope we can "meet again" very soon. 😎